Then came home and proceeded to buy 2 pairs of shoes to wear with said dresses instead of just wearing one of the many many MANY pairs I already own.
I feel a little better about this last week and a half full of bullshit. Especially last nights fiasco.
Yay retail therapy.
But I punted my wallet into a storm drain.
I wasn’t even drunk. Wtf….?!
Called the city to come help, but since it’s not a “normal” issue (flooding, chemicals, etc) they wouldn’t come help til their next crew came in.
Thankfully a friend’s bf was kind (and super badass) enough to take the manhole cover off and climb in and retrieve it.
I owe him big time, but I wasn’t about to give him the cash in my wallet without at least washing it off :/
I am the biggest idiot in the world…
To take about 10 steps back and reevaluate it all and then I’m eventually able to let it go.
Mind you, it’s usually after repeating “I’m done. I’m out.” Over and over in my head in order to reassure myself that it has nothing to do with me, and it’s the other person with the clear issues in all this.
It would be nice if it didn’t happen every single time I opened up to someone new though.
It is absolutely the most mentally exhausting thing I can think of. And it is actually more stressful than my actual job is. Dating shouldn’t be a job, but I swear the men around here make it out to be.
Absolute waste of my time. Every time.